Today I just feel to share my heart about something the Lord has been doing and speaking to me about in this current season. We often say that we trust the Lord but do we really trust Him with ALL of our being and in every area of our life?
A few months ago I had all the symptoms of blood pressure so I headed to the pharmacy to have it checked. I felt a huge amount of fear/anxiety before I heading into the nurse’s station. The RESULT… My blood pressure was very high and she said that I needed to keep it monitored and have it checked again in one week’s time.
At this point, fear overwhelmed me and the enemy brought various thoughts about heart disease in my generational line, strokes and the fact that I was too young to have high blood pressure. Panic overtook me to the point that I did not sleep that night and the next morning due to all the fear/ anxiety I headed back to the pharmacy to have it checked once again. Never mind the fact that I was only due to go back to the pharmacy, one week later. I then prayed about it and I felt not to do anything and trust the Lord BUT the fear that I felt trumped what Papa God was saying to me and I acted not out of obedience but out of fear.
The results were once again high and the nurse recommended that I visit a doctor. I have come to realize that God is so gracious even when we pull our own way and He highlighted a doctor that I should visit. My blood pressure was once again extremely high and the doctor advised that I be monitored for 24 hours to establish if it is actually hypertension. She then said that she sees that I am pursuing ministry and that she would like to put me on a medical trial. This would mean the cost of all my visits and medication, should I need any, would be covered in full and I will not have to pay one single cent.
That evening I decided to earnestly pray and seek the Lord, as I got a revelation that I am no longer a slave to fear but I am a child of God. This song sums it up so well: No Longer Slaves by Jonathan & Melissa Helser (No Longer Slaves). So with little faith, I called upon the Lord to touch my body and I declared that I have the blood of Jesus flowing through my veins and my DNA is no longer that of this world but I am a citizen of heaven. I did feel the Lord saying that I don’t have hypertension and I won’t need medication but I did not have the faith to believe it.
I went back to the doctor the next day for the verdict … I DID NOT have hypertension and I would not need meds. It was due to anxiety/fear that caused my blood pressure to be elevated and to top it all off… my bill was fully covered.
God is so good and so merciful and I have come to discover through this process that, I say that I TRUST Papa God completely but I really don’t. So often we act on what we feel and what we see instead of trusting what the Holy Spirit is saying to us. I acted on what I was feeling and on what I saw on the blood pressure monitor and believed that instead of agreeing with the truth of what the Holy Spirit was impressing on my heart. I became so caught up in the fear and panic that I lost perspective of what God was saying and the whole situation just escalated.
I want to encourage you to listen to the heartbeat of heaven and follow what Holy Spirit is saying as He won’t fail you. People around us have failed and let us down but we can have the assurance that Papa God has our back and if He says something and we feel His heartbeat on it, then we can trust Him completely. He is not going to say something and do another. So be encouraged today, lay the fear/anxiety down and seek God, as He only wants the best for us. We can trust His word above all else. I am reminded of this verse: “Every word of God is flawless, He is a shield to those who take refuge in Him” (Proverbs 30:5). GOD IS TRUSTWORTHY…take hold of His hand today!!