I went to watch the movie: “Hillsong: Let Hope Arise” and it really struck a chord deep within my heart. It actually activated something within me that caused my heart to beat with greater vigor as I sat in the cinema in tears (which just kept coming). I recalled why I am doing what I am doing. Many people have asked me how could I give up my full-time job and “wait” upon the Lord but without hesitation, I would say that I have chosen to lay it all down and follow hard after JESUS. I definitely would not trade this journey for anything else in this world.
To give you some background, I have been on a journey with the Lord for 44 months where He called me to lay down my job (Food Technology) that was basically ALL that I knew. It was something I enjoyed doing but it was also my source of income and I was pretty comfortable. To be very honest I could not say that I was 100% fulfilled, as it felt like something was missing in my life but overall I was content and satisfied.
Recalling the events of how that day unfolded, that I got the word to leave my job seems like yesterday. We had some family visiting from Johannesburg and we had spent this particular Saturday with them, enjoying the summer weather. We returned home and it seemed like a pretty usual day. I went to bathroom, yes the toilet to be exact (I was not sure if I should add this in but that is where the Lord spoke to me), and I felt I heard the still small voice of Holy Spirit saying: “I need you to resign from your job on the 28 January 2013. It has to be the 28th January as February only has 28 days”. It made sense, as I had to give one calendar months notice. I immediately ran to the calendar to check this and it was spot on. Shaken by all this, that unfolded very suddenly, I was still not sure as I had no other job and I was doing all of this by faith believing that I received a word from the Lord. I struggled with the decision as I was not sure if I had the faith to lay it all down and walk away from ALL that was comfortable and known to me. The day before I was going to resign I received a prophetic word out of the blue from someone I trusted and it said, ” The Lord is calling you to step out the boat and walk on the water”. I definitely did not need more confirmation than this. It was a huge RISK but my heart was to be obedient and I did exactly that! FAITH = RISK after all…
So yes, here I am a few years down the road, still living by faith!! The Lord has been more than faithful and has been showing me that He is a GOOD GOOD FATHER. The journey has not always been easy and at times things don’t make sense to me. Other times I question, did I do the right thing but there is a knowing deep within that I am walking in the destiny and purpose that Papa God has ordained for me. I am beginning to see that it is not about the outcome but it is the process that matters most on this journey. I have discovered when Jesus calls us to take a risk it leads to the best adventures ever. So to answer people’s questions of how could I lay it all down? It is ALL for King Jesus and my heart is to see His name lifted high throughout the earth NO MATTER THE COST!!